WHAT AM I DOING?

What am I doing? I have asked myself this question many times. I have plans for my future, and I am trying to do the best of my ability. But I usually break my plans up. I really do not want to do that. Absolutely not. But I have done it. Why is that? I feel dissapointed myself. Today is 10/30. I want to start again on 11/1. I will forget everything. I will focus on my future. OK, I will do that. I am a strong man, and I will never yield the destiny.