1/21/10: a beautiful and sunny day!

I had an argument with my girlfriend because she misunderstood me. I wanted to let her know that I love her and want to have a happy moments with her. I said it would be a wonderful night if she can do a belly-dance while I am drinking a glass of wine. when I said that I meant we would have a unforgetable night together but she thought I just wanted her to serve me as a king. I got mad and we argued for a while. I don't think this is bad for our relationship. I think that such conflict could give us a better understand each other, and through this we will get to know each other better.
My parents are going back to my country to visit my grandmother side. I sent the gifts to my girlfriend and a friend of mine. I told my best friend to come to the airport to pick up the gifts. He had asked me to give him some $2 bill because the Vietnamese believe that they will bring the luck to us in the first day of the year. I promised him to do so, but I did not do it. I feel uneasy and guilty about that. I know he might be getting mad at me, but I don't blame him. At the bottom of my heart, I want to say sorry to him and compensate him. I am sorry man.

I realize that to implement a plan is very dificult. I thought my plan is simple, and I can do it easily. I want to save money, study English and working out everyday. I want to do it bit by bit but keep doing everyday. The plan sounds simple, but it is hard to do in reality. For instance, I have to get up early at 4:30 in the morning to work on the weekends, so I am too tired to be able to set up for a working out. I know it is hard to do everything I want every single day, yet I know I have to do it in order to make a better life for me. I wasted too much time since I came to the U.S. My life would be so much better if I regconized this early on, but I was in the struggle by that time. I struggled to find and form a way for my life, a new life that I was not ready for it yet. Time past as I am getting mature, a mature man who knows where to go and what to do. From now to May, I am gonna to paid off all my debts and get my AA degree done. After that I am gonna try to find another job to save money as much as possible. Next year I am gonna go back to my country and open my own business there. I nurture a great ambitions, and I know I have to work hard to make it. I want to write an autography some day in the future, so I have to have some interesting events to write about. I am very excited to write a book in English that tells my story, my life, my thoughts and my innermost feelings. I will try to write a short article everyday, hopefully some day they would make up a great book for me.

Friendship!

Today is a great day because I realize that I still have good friends around me. I thought nobody helps me and understands me, but I was wrong. There are still the friends who sincerely come to me without any exploitation. I just called Bien, a friend of mine, and confided to him my financial problem. Suprisingly, he is willing to borrow me the money that he reserves to build a house. I am moved by his act. I know that amount of money has to be used in very important plan, but he is willing to give it to me. Thank so lot my buddy.

Headache

I don't know what I am doing now, but I am really headache. My financial problem, my future, my life all make me too tired. I really regret what I had done in the past 5 years. If I didn't extravagantly spend all my money, I wouldn't be in a bad situation like this. If I didn't waste my time, I could be able to get my BA this summer. If... If I met her earlier, I could have had motivation to strike. I used to live a life without any goal. I used to leave my life float wherever it wanted to go. But I am a strong person, I am a good man. I cannot be failed. I got to be successful. Instead spending my time thinking about what already happened, I will use my time to implement my plan. Here are what I am gonna do:
I will strike to pay off all my debt in June, and I will try to find another job to save money.
I will strike to get my AA degree done this semester.
Everyday I will try to finish these goals: study, working out, saving money, reading an article, watching TV and videos and blogging in order to practice my English.
I will do everything to make my dreams become true because I am a strong man, and I cannot be failed.